Dimmed room, comforting silence, soft voice over the quiet rain drops. It couldnt have been planned better. Couldnt have been more perfect. Just laying there looking at her, feeling her presence was more then what I could ask for. I feel like for the first time... both of us are leaving our fears, worries and barriers behind us. Being unafraid of what is to come and learning to trust... for the first time.
Time flew so quickly in that room... what seemed like a few hours turned to be a entire day. Hardest part was honestly just letting go... missing looking at her sleeping face as light enters the room. Missing the hugs, kiss and the quiet voice. Missing the trivial aspects like the number of pillows on her bed, the way her bookshelf are stacked and really.. just missing her. It is a feeling so difficult to fulfil... nothing you think or do replaces it, and expressing it in front of anyone is so difficult.
But I just want to capture this raw feeling right now, on this blog... privately as a memory. I don't remember much from the drive home just then... all i remembered was flashes of traffic light... and the moon, half full and bright.. brighter then any other time of the month. Strange occurrence on such a windy and rainy night. But I do remember it... distinctly remember all of its features.
It has been a long while since I last blogged about something. It wasnt because I had nothing to talk about, rather I have been busy with my life in general. Uni has been hell right now and things are starting to creep near the deadlines. Mentoring program I joined has been great and honestly, at this moment I dont care too much about anything but her....
I truely want to write more... but I an exhausted and need to do my uni assignment before I sleep tonight, otherwise I will be panicking in the morning.
outie
srg91
Really good stuff... huge blast from the past
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPc-o-4Nsbk&feature=relmfu
Nickelback - Savin Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4y-RzVGrHg&ob=av2e
Nickelback - Far Away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GWQ-oDMG6g&feature=relmfu
Nickelback - Never Gonna Be Alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cQh1ccqu8M&feature=related
Nickelback - How You Remind Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-VMFdpdDYYA&feature=relmfu
Nickelback - Someday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB0DU4DoPP4&feature=related
Nickelback - Photograph
