Dimmed room, comforting silence, soft voice over the quiet rain drops. It couldnt have been planned better. Couldnt have been more perfect. Just laying there looking at her, feeling her presence was more then what I could ask for. I feel like for the first time... both of us are leaving our fears, worries and barriers behind us. Being unafraid of what is to come and learning to trust... for the first time.
Time flew so quickly in that room... what seemed like a few hours turned to be a entire day. Hardest part was honestly just letting go... missing looking at her sleeping face as light enters the room. Missing the hugs, kiss and the quiet voice. Missing the trivial aspects like the number of pillows on her bed, the way her bookshelf are stacked and really.. just missing her. It is a feeling so difficult to fulfil... nothing you think or do replaces it, and expressing it in front of anyone is so difficult.
But I just want to capture this raw feeling right now, on this blog... privately as a memory. I don't remember much from the drive home just then... all i remembered was flashes of traffic light... and the moon, half full and bright.. brighter then any other time of the month. Strange occurrence on such a windy and rainy night. But I do remember it... distinctly remember all of its features.
It has been a long while since I last blogged about something. It wasnt because I had nothing to talk about, rather I have been busy with my life in general. Uni has been hell right now and things are starting to creep near the deadlines. Mentoring program I joined has been great and honestly, at this moment I dont care too much about anything but her....
I truely want to write more... but I an exhausted and need to do my uni assignment before I sleep tonight, otherwise I will be panicking in the morning.
outie
srg91
Really good stuff... huge blast from the past
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jPc-o-4Nsbk&feature=relmfu
Nickelback - Savin Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4y-RzVGrHg&ob=av2e
Nickelback - Far Away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1GWQ-oDMG6g&feature=relmfu
Nickelback - Never Gonna Be Alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1cQh1ccqu8M&feature=related
Nickelback - How You Remind Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-VMFdpdDYYA&feature=relmfu
Nickelback - Someday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB0DU4DoPP4&feature=related
Nickelback - Photograph
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
End of a road.
Over a week since I have not wrote anything here... Afew things have changed, some.. bad, some brilliant. So i guess it is the whole good vs bad news.
Imma actually really tired atm, so this will be pretty short.
One of the worst ways to end a relationship (friendship in this case)... in my opinion is not when one side is mad/angry at the other side, but when both sides realise that regardless of how much effort is added into the said relationship, it simply will not work out. Maybe it is due to different beliefs, personalities or even world views. I think it is in those times that we cherish the other person for what they have done for us. The final moment that both sides have tried to avoid finally came, reluctantly but... accepting as something long foreseen. It wasnt the ending I wanted... nor was it the one he wanted either, I dont think we are mad at each other by the time we said goodbye. I think both of us wanted the other guy to say, lets try and work it out (or some shit on those lines). Both I think both of us realise that it is simply too hard and maybe over time... this will become easier to work out. You were one of my pillars in life, the amount of support you had for me is unbelievable. All I can think of.. is that it has been a long road... a good long road that has come to a cross section... (or maybe it has been at a cross section for a long time). I am sure our path will meet someday later down in life, and I will hunt you down if it doesnt meet up somewhere.
Im not gonna lie, but I did cry that night, from my inability to save this situation, my lack of strength, my irreplaceable memories of both of us growing up. all in all... something died in my that night. I wish I was different.. or you were different, but it is too late to change that.. Like i told you... the old me, isnt going to come back at all. I think i said alot that night.. you know the deal, old rules are still old rules and those wouldnt change... but somethings.. wouldnt be the same again.. and i guess I will miss those the most, that innocence we shared is no longer there... and that is something I would regret the most about the two of us.
I honestly dont know how I am going to change that darkened mood to a lighter mood for the next part. so i am going to keep it short and sweet cause I dont really wanna say toooooooooooooo much about it. But TL:DR, I just had one of the best weeks of my life... I love that wednesday night... thanks for sharing it with me <3. But thats not all I appreciate, but I think its better to keep the rest between the two of us :). All in all, your beautiful, awesome and amazing. That is all.
srg91
The Script - Breakeven
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzCLLHscMOw&ob=av3e
B.o.B - Airplanes (Feat. Hayley Williams of Paramore)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kn6-c223DUU&feature=related
Bruno Mars - The Other Side ft. Cee Lo Green & B.o.B
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8Ed8in9Qng
Paramore: The Only Exception
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-J7J_IWUhls&feature=related
Imma actually really tired atm, so this will be pretty short.
One of the worst ways to end a relationship (friendship in this case)... in my opinion is not when one side is mad/angry at the other side, but when both sides realise that regardless of how much effort is added into the said relationship, it simply will not work out. Maybe it is due to different beliefs, personalities or even world views. I think it is in those times that we cherish the other person for what they have done for us. The final moment that both sides have tried to avoid finally came, reluctantly but... accepting as something long foreseen. It wasnt the ending I wanted... nor was it the one he wanted either, I dont think we are mad at each other by the time we said goodbye. I think both of us wanted the other guy to say, lets try and work it out (or some shit on those lines). Both I think both of us realise that it is simply too hard and maybe over time... this will become easier to work out. You were one of my pillars in life, the amount of support you had for me is unbelievable. All I can think of.. is that it has been a long road... a good long road that has come to a cross section... (or maybe it has been at a cross section for a long time). I am sure our path will meet someday later down in life, and I will hunt you down if it doesnt meet up somewhere.
Im not gonna lie, but I did cry that night, from my inability to save this situation, my lack of strength, my irreplaceable memories of both of us growing up. all in all... something died in my that night. I wish I was different.. or you were different, but it is too late to change that.. Like i told you... the old me, isnt going to come back at all. I think i said alot that night.. you know the deal, old rules are still old rules and those wouldnt change... but somethings.. wouldnt be the same again.. and i guess I will miss those the most, that innocence we shared is no longer there... and that is something I would regret the most about the two of us.
I honestly dont know how I am going to change that darkened mood to a lighter mood for the next part. so i am going to keep it short and sweet cause I dont really wanna say toooooooooooooo much about it. But TL:DR, I just had one of the best weeks of my life... I love that wednesday night... thanks for sharing it with me <3. But thats not all I appreciate, but I think its better to keep the rest between the two of us :). All in all, your beautiful, awesome and amazing. That is all.
srg91
The Script - Breakeven
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzCLLHscMOw&ob=av3e
B.o.B - Airplanes (Feat. Hayley Williams of Paramore)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kn6-c223DUU&feature=related
Bruno Mars - The Other Side ft. Cee Lo Green & B.o.B
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8Ed8in9Qng
Paramore: The Only Exception
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-J7J_IWUhls&feature=related
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Life101
rather early for a blog (12:30am start) but... its been way overdue. Its been a tiring week tbh, uni kicked in and honestly.. reading even 10 pages of uni notes can be extremely consuming (let alone like 30 for each unit rofl).
I guess everyone is on the same boat, but I am sort of trying hard at uni for the first time honestly. But i think I am getting to this age where my brain refuse to function after X amount of hours of work. FU age FU. So here I am brain dead but funnily, spirited despite a longggggggggg day and an early day tom (get to uni by 9 gg). Basically i have written... 11 words in the past 4 hours. Uni = hard but pretty rewarding lately I guess, you put in what you get back, and i hopefully will put in enough to get a better grading by the end of this year.
Enough about that, I actually spent the better part of the night looking for some advice. I went out looking for relo101 advice and funnily, my friend amazed me once again with her ability to turn relo101 into life101. I thought what she said was pretty insightful, so imma gonna share with the lot of ya. So in many ways i hit two birds with one stone (getting both relo and life advice).
You see a nice hill in the distance, covered in green. It looks like something you want to lie on. It looks soft, refreshing and comfortable. But when you go near that hill, the story is different. The "green" grass is not so green anymore. Some are yellow, some are dead. There are dirt, broken branches and generally doesnt look appealing. Pretty sure its a common story, the idea of the grass looks greener on the other side. But that is your life. That stationary hill is your life. When you inspect it closely, the everyday perspective seems pretty average or below average. There are ants moving, grass are dying/dead, twigs and stones around the place and there are dirt. But if you step back, and have a look from afar. It is amazing that this plain hill looks extremely attractive. And in many ways... and I quote from her "It's kind of fucking perfect".
I guess what I am trying to share is that, everyday life is boring in many ways. Bad days are more frequent then good days usually. Moments of happiness are counterbalanced by hours of sadness. If sometimes life does get tough, try and step out of it for a moment, and just observe that hill for its far away beauty. Just the fact you have carried on to today is rather amazing. This, is the true theories behind Life101.
Oh one thing I am excited about, is that my mentoring program is finally gonna kick off :D. So nervous, but it will be an great experience for me to mentor high school pplz :D. I really cant wait for it start.
Thats really it... I really need sleep or else I will be f'ed for tomorrow.
Srg91
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y97LexquznI&feature=related
Raise Your Glass-Pink (cover) Megan Nicole and Jason Chen
( great energy tbh)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQlIhraqL7o
I Just Had Sex (The Lonely Island feat. Akon)
I LOVE THOSE GUYS, i dont think i havnt disliked any of their songs... its all really great stuff, so pretty much the rest of these songs will be those guy's.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pXfHLUlZf4&feature=relmfu
Jizz In My Pants The Lonely Island
Eat a grapeeeeee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GI6CfKcMhjY&feature=related
Jack Sparrow (The Lonely Island feat. Michael Bolton)
This is why movies doesnt make popular songs :P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NisCkxU544c&feature=related
Like A Boss (The Lonely Island ft. Seth Rogen) - Uncensored Version
ROFL SHIT ON DEBERAH'S DESK ROFLLLLLL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_W_xLWtNa0
Shy Ronnie 2: Ronnie & Clyde (The Lonely Island feat. Rihanna)
tell them ronnieeeeeee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pi7gwX7rjOw&feature=related
3-Way (The Golden Rule) (The Lonely Island feat. Justin Timberlake & Lady Gaga)
Well... maybe and maybe not
Seriously tho... there areeee sooooo many, any one of those is just brilliant.
I guess everyone is on the same boat, but I am sort of trying hard at uni for the first time honestly. But i think I am getting to this age where my brain refuse to function after X amount of hours of work. FU age FU. So here I am brain dead but funnily, spirited despite a longggggggggg day and an early day tom (get to uni by 9 gg). Basically i have written... 11 words in the past 4 hours. Uni = hard but pretty rewarding lately I guess, you put in what you get back, and i hopefully will put in enough to get a better grading by the end of this year.
Enough about that, I actually spent the better part of the night looking for some advice. I went out looking for relo101 advice and funnily, my friend amazed me once again with her ability to turn relo101 into life101. I thought what she said was pretty insightful, so imma gonna share with the lot of ya. So in many ways i hit two birds with one stone (getting both relo and life advice).
You see a nice hill in the distance, covered in green. It looks like something you want to lie on. It looks soft, refreshing and comfortable. But when you go near that hill, the story is different. The "green" grass is not so green anymore. Some are yellow, some are dead. There are dirt, broken branches and generally doesnt look appealing. Pretty sure its a common story, the idea of the grass looks greener on the other side. But that is your life. That stationary hill is your life. When you inspect it closely, the everyday perspective seems pretty average or below average. There are ants moving, grass are dying/dead, twigs and stones around the place and there are dirt. But if you step back, and have a look from afar. It is amazing that this plain hill looks extremely attractive. And in many ways... and I quote from her "It's kind of fucking perfect".
I guess what I am trying to share is that, everyday life is boring in many ways. Bad days are more frequent then good days usually. Moments of happiness are counterbalanced by hours of sadness. If sometimes life does get tough, try and step out of it for a moment, and just observe that hill for its far away beauty. Just the fact you have carried on to today is rather amazing. This, is the true theories behind Life101.
Oh one thing I am excited about, is that my mentoring program is finally gonna kick off :D. So nervous, but it will be an great experience for me to mentor high school pplz :D. I really cant wait for it start.
Thats really it... I really need sleep or else I will be f'ed for tomorrow.
Srg91
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y97LexquznI&feature=related
Raise Your Glass-Pink (cover) Megan Nicole and Jason Chen
( great energy tbh)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQlIhraqL7o
I Just Had Sex (The Lonely Island feat. Akon)
I LOVE THOSE GUYS, i dont think i havnt disliked any of their songs... its all really great stuff, so pretty much the rest of these songs will be those guy's.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pXfHLUlZf4&feature=relmfu
Jizz In My Pants The Lonely Island
Eat a grapeeeeee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GI6CfKcMhjY&feature=related
Jack Sparrow (The Lonely Island feat. Michael Bolton)
This is why movies doesnt make popular songs :P
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NisCkxU544c&feature=related
Like A Boss (The Lonely Island ft. Seth Rogen) - Uncensored Version
ROFL SHIT ON DEBERAH'S DESK ROFLLLLLL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6_W_xLWtNa0
Shy Ronnie 2: Ronnie & Clyde (The Lonely Island feat. Rihanna)
tell them ronnieeeeeee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pi7gwX7rjOw&feature=related
3-Way (The Golden Rule) (The Lonely Island feat. Justin Timberlake & Lady Gaga)
Well... maybe and maybe not
Seriously tho... there areeee sooooo many, any one of those is just brilliant.
Monday, August 8, 2011
The general feel of the week
I am a bastard, or rather I can be alot of the times. (see just as promised haha), no but, that is the truth. Everyone have different sides of themselves, some they show to certain pplz whilst the other sides are kept for another different group of pplz. It has been an long and interesting week. There were some bad (hopefully not extremely bad news) from my family this week. I only told one guy so far (under the influence of alchy), but it is just hard to keep my feelings under control. I do worry because it is... after all my family.
In terms of uni, im pretty fucked for it... there are... alot of work to be done this semi, but I think i will manage (somehow, like how i always manage). Met up with one of my bros this week, a while since we last hanged. As always, showed me some great times. Kudos for him finally, after a long time of searching, finding this girl who compliment him extremely well. As his long term wing throughout high school and beyond, im truely happy for his new situation. Wallet may be a little empty these days, but mate, it will be worth it for surez. Its been a long journey my friend, but may this be a new beginning to something wonderful.
Altho, this whole week, on top those of these good/bad news, i do have some great (?) news, i guess? I honestly don't want to raise my hope or anything, esp with a divided opinion from a lot of the friends I have spoken to, but i think i stumbled onto something that may be great for me. She does come on this blog, but i stick to what I wrote before, this blog is my personal space, for my own thoughts, feelings and emotions. I intend to keep this as true as possible, and also because, I dont feel like I have anything to hide, i have been honest (or honest to the best of my abilities). (pretty sure she is dying to read the next part too hahaha). To put in a cheesey pickup line, i honestly wonder why you aint tired from running in my mind in the past few days. There is... honestly no reason why this girl should say yes to anything I suggest to her, but she hasnt said no yet..., when I am with her, i feel like me, when I cant think of anything to say to her, i just want to look at her, like a dumb idiot tbh. Worst thing is, my reading ability goes no where when I am with her, honestly something tells me... this is going to well to be true when I think about it each time. I didn't understand the idea of, in a relationship, just be yourself before, now... I think i have had a taste of it. There are so many insecurities within me, i have no idea wtf I am doing, no idea what she is truly thinking, or how she feels about me. I want it to work out even tho I have no idea what to expect next. I remember linking arms and walking beside the lake... for the first 30 seconds I was so fucking scared, what if she didnt like it, what if this what if that, i literally froze and just kept walking onwards and yeh... but it is/ has been really fun and I enjoyed every single bit of it. rofl, i dont know wtf else I am meant to say =.=, but thats what is really on my mind when Im not with her.
I got a big day later today (1:30 ish here), gonna just hang abit more then zzz
outy
srg91
Yeh check these out, its pretty good stuff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC2sN5gd5cE&feature=related
Maroon 5 "Sunday Morning" (COVER) by alot of pplz
(these dudes are soo talented... and esp tim's freestyle, crazy shit, probably my most fav sunday morning cover of all times)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yULxdzqhXUI
You've Been On My Mind by Dave Days
(I love this guy, really nice voice and really down to earth)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhX2iKSh2QE
Dave Days - What Does It Take
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtIfld84Ydw&feature=relmfu
Dave Days - Olive You feat. Kimmi Smiles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgGUKWiw7Wk
JJ Heller - What Love Really Means
(very sweet XD, thank youuuu)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=rhN7SG-H-3k
Yiruma - River Flows in You
(this is really... beautiful, no lyrics (unusual for someone like me tbh) but its... smooth and passionate)
In terms of uni, im pretty fucked for it... there are... alot of work to be done this semi, but I think i will manage (somehow, like how i always manage). Met up with one of my bros this week, a while since we last hanged. As always, showed me some great times. Kudos for him finally, after a long time of searching, finding this girl who compliment him extremely well. As his long term wing throughout high school and beyond, im truely happy for his new situation. Wallet may be a little empty these days, but mate, it will be worth it for surez. Its been a long journey my friend, but may this be a new beginning to something wonderful.
Altho, this whole week, on top those of these good/bad news, i do have some great (?) news, i guess? I honestly don't want to raise my hope or anything, esp with a divided opinion from a lot of the friends I have spoken to, but i think i stumbled onto something that may be great for me. She does come on this blog, but i stick to what I wrote before, this blog is my personal space, for my own thoughts, feelings and emotions. I intend to keep this as true as possible, and also because, I dont feel like I have anything to hide, i have been honest (or honest to the best of my abilities). (pretty sure she is dying to read the next part too hahaha). To put in a cheesey pickup line, i honestly wonder why you aint tired from running in my mind in the past few days. There is... honestly no reason why this girl should say yes to anything I suggest to her, but she hasnt said no yet..., when I am with her, i feel like me, when I cant think of anything to say to her, i just want to look at her, like a dumb idiot tbh. Worst thing is, my reading ability goes no where when I am with her, honestly something tells me... this is going to well to be true when I think about it each time. I didn't understand the idea of, in a relationship, just be yourself before, now... I think i have had a taste of it. There are so many insecurities within me, i have no idea wtf I am doing, no idea what she is truly thinking, or how she feels about me. I want it to work out even tho I have no idea what to expect next. I remember linking arms and walking beside the lake... for the first 30 seconds I was so fucking scared, what if she didnt like it, what if this what if that, i literally froze and just kept walking onwards and yeh... but it is/ has been really fun and I enjoyed every single bit of it. rofl, i dont know wtf else I am meant to say =.=, but thats what is really on my mind when Im not with her.
I got a big day later today (1:30 ish here), gonna just hang abit more then zzz
outy
srg91
Yeh check these out, its pretty good stuff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC2sN5gd5cE&feature=related
Maroon 5 "Sunday Morning" (COVER) by alot of pplz
(these dudes are soo talented... and esp tim's freestyle, crazy shit, probably my most fav sunday morning cover of all times)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yULxdzqhXUI
You've Been On My Mind by Dave Days
(I love this guy, really nice voice and really down to earth)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhX2iKSh2QE
Dave Days - What Does It Take
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtIfld84Ydw&feature=relmfu
Dave Days - Olive You feat. Kimmi Smiles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgGUKWiw7Wk
JJ Heller - What Love Really Means
(very sweet XD, thank youuuu)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=rhN7SG-H-3k
Yiruma - River Flows in You
(this is really... beautiful, no lyrics (unusual for someone like me tbh) but its... smooth and passionate)
Thursday, August 4, 2011
True blast from the past
Its 12pm right now and I have been at uni since 8:30 ish. Long story short is that I forgot i didnt have a morning class until next week so I am bored shitless. My uni unit boards doesnt work so I cant really do any work.
I didnt intend to write up the blog, but I actually read my previous blog site, all 10+ of them from early last year. All i can say is... it brought back alot of emotions and memories of that past. It has been an entire year since my last post on that site, certain things have not changed fundamentally, but I would definitely consider many of those topics to be improving for the better. In many ways I am still in my last year's situation, but in most aspects, it has improved dramatically. I think I came out stronger then before and for that, I have too many people to thank for. It has been a long journey that I have not completed just yet.
After reading that blog, I felt like I achieved alot during this one whole year. Nothing big or outstanding, but smaller goals that has lead me to where I am today. I cant say I am there just yet, because there are so many things I want to change about myself and improved upon. But for the first time, I am changing for myself, and I am comfortable with my current self as well as the changes that are happening. In short, Im really grateful to be at the place I am right now. I hope that when I read back on this blog in 1 year time, I can say I have grown again to become a better person (whatever that means :P). But that is the future, so its tomorrow's worry :P.
Anyways, http://somerandomguy1991.blogspot.com/ is the blog I had last year. Kinda weird reading it tbh, cause I couldnt remember some of what I was talking about, but meh.
peace lol
srg91
P.S. Big ass edit cause I can, gonna try and add afew songs that either reflect my mood or things I found to be good or decent. It may be mainstream or whatever and repeats are allowed. I will try and keep it short but.. meh who knows how we go XD. (seeing its the first time, its gonna be a rather long list). Altho Im pretty much a mixture of mainstream and youtube (mostly youtube talents), most of these artists I mention are extremely talented and only one song does not do their music justice. Go check each of them out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Rvjfm5FYHM
B-e-a-utiful by Megan Nicole
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG-ut2F2rTY
So Goodbye (This Time Lies Wont Explain) by Chester See
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfeys7Jfnx8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fz3zFqLc3E
Nice Guys By Chester See, Kevjumba, Nigahiga
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swWYvpsLr4o
By My Side By David Choi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDTKAHk_T5k
That Girl By David Choi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JByDbPn6A1o&ob=av3e
Space Bound By Eminem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpOL0oRjuh0&feature=channel_video_title
Just For A Moment - Jason Chen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFTKJefr3AA
"Without You" By AJ Rafael
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvX-eYO1UKM
DFD - ARE WE THERE YET
I didnt intend to write up the blog, but I actually read my previous blog site, all 10+ of them from early last year. All i can say is... it brought back alot of emotions and memories of that past. It has been an entire year since my last post on that site, certain things have not changed fundamentally, but I would definitely consider many of those topics to be improving for the better. In many ways I am still in my last year's situation, but in most aspects, it has improved dramatically. I think I came out stronger then before and for that, I have too many people to thank for. It has been a long journey that I have not completed just yet.
After reading that blog, I felt like I achieved alot during this one whole year. Nothing big or outstanding, but smaller goals that has lead me to where I am today. I cant say I am there just yet, because there are so many things I want to change about myself and improved upon. But for the first time, I am changing for myself, and I am comfortable with my current self as well as the changes that are happening. In short, Im really grateful to be at the place I am right now. I hope that when I read back on this blog in 1 year time, I can say I have grown again to become a better person (whatever that means :P). But that is the future, so its tomorrow's worry :P.
Anyways, http://somerandomguy1991.blogspot.com/ is the blog I had last year. Kinda weird reading it tbh, cause I couldnt remember some of what I was talking about, but meh.
peace lol
srg91
P.S. Big ass edit cause I can, gonna try and add afew songs that either reflect my mood or things I found to be good or decent. It may be mainstream or whatever and repeats are allowed. I will try and keep it short but.. meh who knows how we go XD. (seeing its the first time, its gonna be a rather long list). Altho Im pretty much a mixture of mainstream and youtube (mostly youtube talents), most of these artists I mention are extremely talented and only one song does not do their music justice. Go check each of them out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Rvjfm5FYHM
B-e-a-utiful by Megan Nicole
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iG-ut2F2rTY
So Goodbye (This Time Lies Wont Explain) by Chester See
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfeys7Jfnx8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Fz3zFqLc3E
Nice Guys By Chester See, Kevjumba, Nigahiga
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=swWYvpsLr4o
By My Side By David Choi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDTKAHk_T5k
That Girl By David Choi
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JByDbPn6A1o&ob=av3e
Space Bound By Eminem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpOL0oRjuh0&feature=channel_video_title
Just For A Moment - Jason Chen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFTKJefr3AA
"Without You" By AJ Rafael
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvX-eYO1UKM
DFD - ARE WE THERE YET
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
These conflicting emotions
Adele's someone like you surprisingly gave me goosebumps... the kind I have not felt in a long time. I just came back from a nightout actually.. but it has been an interesting week tbh. this was meant to be about how my week was, but i actually deleted it cause well... it just didnt seem appropriate and sounded more boring then it was meant to be. It has been an amazing week. Only factual thing about this week that anyone needs to know is that my hair has been dyed from black to this light brownish color that looks complete awesomeeeee.
Honestly there are sooo many things I feel atm, excitement, fear, sense of a new beginning of alot of things, uni starts in a day, i have a mentoring program which is going to keep me busy. In terms of relationships, still the same old, if it happens it happens. Right now tho, there is a potential girl who I am going for, but right now I dont think will work out. Only time will tell on that, but hey... it was great load of fun and tonight has been a greattt night, in fact one of the best ones i had for a long while whilst not out with my crew clubbing.
But still, the fear is still there for it not working out, maybe due to age difference, maybe due to other factors, but that is where the excitement lies at.
What will tomorrow bring? I have no idea... but i certainly look forward to it :)
peace out
Srg91
P.S kinda surprisingly short for a long wonderful week
listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAc83CF8Ejk&ob=av2n
it is just a beautiful song honestly
Honestly there are sooo many things I feel atm, excitement, fear, sense of a new beginning of alot of things, uni starts in a day, i have a mentoring program which is going to keep me busy. In terms of relationships, still the same old, if it happens it happens. Right now tho, there is a potential girl who I am going for, but right now I dont think will work out. Only time will tell on that, but hey... it was great load of fun and tonight has been a greattt night, in fact one of the best ones i had for a long while whilst not out with my crew clubbing.
But still, the fear is still there for it not working out, maybe due to age difference, maybe due to other factors, but that is where the excitement lies at.
What will tomorrow bring? I have no idea... but i certainly look forward to it :)
peace out
Srg91
P.S kinda surprisingly short for a long wonderful week
listening to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAc83CF8Ejk&ob=av2n
it is just a beautiful song honestly
Friday, July 22, 2011
New found appreciation and no homo
Deep down everyone can be a motherf**ker sometimes, yet everyone has their nice side as well. Kinda funny when you hurt others and dont realise it, and when others hurt you, you make a big fuss about it. Had a fight with my mate today, probably my best mate in the f'ed up world tbh. Not going into the details, but for some fucked up reason we seem to bond (atleast i feel) better after we have arguments. I am happy to admit, i dont always practice what I preach, nor do I uphold my morals in life every walking day.
I know that dude comes on my blog and read my shit, so im gonna say this here and then, i know that despite our differences in lifestyle, interest and all that shit, i honestly and honestly believe deep down, our friendship isnt about the past, nor the memories we held when we were growing up, I think we havnt really figured it out yet tbh, how two kids being 10 years old can be such good friends despite the limitations of our youth, i think we just put this as an excuse of it being the past, and all that bullshit we believe to be truth. All i can say is, its been a long road, we shed tears blood guts and all that shit. Been there for each other for ups and down, i do not think this is simply based on the past. I truly fucking believe we don't know what this is and why the fuck we are "putting" up with each other.
Its times like these, after those fights I realise that you hold me in check for most things i do in life. Maybe to you I am the "mature" one, im not that mature and you know it. Its like that stupid locking arms behind each other and trying to stand up kinda game. you support me as much as I support you. Behind that wall that we spoke about, im just a kid scared of everything, truth is, im nothing without the friends I have today and you my friend, has been a driving force in that matter hands down. You know the shit im doing right now, and i think deep down, you dont approve many parts of it based on your principle, but you try and understand and try and support. In truth, im desperate when i started to do this, this is nothing but one of the better attempts to improve myself, finding myself. I think you made alot of valid points tonight, its one of those things that i will remember for a long while to come, not for the fight itself, but for the fact you bothered to fight to improve me, for that, I cant thank you enough.
Sometimes I dont honestly understand how you can put up with my negatives when I cant even put up with it myself, but for that and just for that, i can tell that your so called "changes" are honestly never needed, you are who you want to be, you just dont like to show it to many people. Altho, stop with those mofo crazy ideas, those are defo not good.
Peace out
Srg
I know that dude comes on my blog and read my shit, so im gonna say this here and then, i know that despite our differences in lifestyle, interest and all that shit, i honestly and honestly believe deep down, our friendship isnt about the past, nor the memories we held when we were growing up, I think we havnt really figured it out yet tbh, how two kids being 10 years old can be such good friends despite the limitations of our youth, i think we just put this as an excuse of it being the past, and all that bullshit we believe to be truth. All i can say is, its been a long road, we shed tears blood guts and all that shit. Been there for each other for ups and down, i do not think this is simply based on the past. I truly fucking believe we don't know what this is and why the fuck we are "putting" up with each other.
Its times like these, after those fights I realise that you hold me in check for most things i do in life. Maybe to you I am the "mature" one, im not that mature and you know it. Its like that stupid locking arms behind each other and trying to stand up kinda game. you support me as much as I support you. Behind that wall that we spoke about, im just a kid scared of everything, truth is, im nothing without the friends I have today and you my friend, has been a driving force in that matter hands down. You know the shit im doing right now, and i think deep down, you dont approve many parts of it based on your principle, but you try and understand and try and support. In truth, im desperate when i started to do this, this is nothing but one of the better attempts to improve myself, finding myself. I think you made alot of valid points tonight, its one of those things that i will remember for a long while to come, not for the fight itself, but for the fact you bothered to fight to improve me, for that, I cant thank you enough.
Sometimes I dont honestly understand how you can put up with my negatives when I cant even put up with it myself, but for that and just for that, i can tell that your so called "changes" are honestly never needed, you are who you want to be, you just dont like to show it to many people. Altho, stop with those mofo crazy ideas, those are defo not good.
Peace out
Srg
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