Life is never constant for me, its just a statement cause I have so much that I wanna write about, yet have no idea how to start. I often ask myself why I enjoy writing these blogs so much, i think it generally comes down to the fact that I am most honest when its on paper, i can tell this piece of paper anything I wanna vent about and mainly because I enjoy writing late at night (almost 4am atm). So what is really new? In many ways nothing much has happened to me personally yet, but within the coming month, much will change, hopefully for the better but I would never know for sure. Its like a darken cloud forming around everything I do, it is simply impossible to tell if those cloud are simply covering that sun or a shower is coming through. I believe that whatever is coming, I will be prepared for it, because for the first time (in a long while), i did something for me.
I remember last year, my rents went to china for over a month, leaving me with the house and car and everything. I remember being excited about the freedom, yet I didn't quite understand that responsibility entirely. I like to hope I am wiser after a year of growing and developing and that my actions is not of a child wanting to get away from responsibility but of a young guy trying to understand his own worth, needs and goals. So what is that "big" news? I quit my job as a waiter after 1.5 years working there. This is gonna be my last week working there. One of my managers asked me why I quit and honestly, i could literally type pages after pages of why I am quitting. All of them are legit reasons and I honestly cbb mentioning them atm. I guess to sum it up in the TL:DR version, I quit because I got fed up with how I am being treated there and I don't think my work inputs are being valued or appreciated. So in one week time I will be jobless, enjoying my last two weeks of uni break and waiting for the spring semi to start. Upside is I have something to do, down side is I can barely see my friends during this semi.
Im probably gonna regret this in the morning, like that time when i messaged most of my contacts when i was pissed drunk buh, blahhhh one by one my friends are dating now. Personally, I am actually not pro relo atm cause lets face it, its fucking expensive and takes up alot of time. Too much for my liking considering that for a guy who does 0, it can get quiet busy for me at times, esp if uni is starting. Buh in terms of relo, i do have my eyes set on a chick buh due to well, me being me (aka probably blown it) and other reasons, im hesitant in many ways to "go for it". So I am feeling really fucking lost bout this whole thing. Ironically probably just half a year ago I would have given up anything to try and get her had I met her back then, sigh such is the irony of life huh.
oh man its like 4:10am, imma outy
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