End of a road.

Over a week since I have not wrote anything here... Afew things have changed, some.. bad, some brilliant. So i guess it is the whole good vs bad news.

Imma actually really tired atm, so this will be pretty short.

One of the worst ways to end a relationship (friendship in this case)... in my opinion is not when one side is mad/angry at the other side, but when both sides realise that regardless of how much effort is added into the said relationship, it simply will not work out. Maybe it is due to different beliefs, personalities or even world views. I think it is in those times that we cherish the other person for what they have done for us. The final moment that both sides have tried to avoid finally came, reluctantly but... accepting as something long foreseen. It wasnt the ending I wanted... nor was it the one he wanted either, I dont think we are mad at each other by the time we said goodbye. I think both of us wanted the other guy to say, lets try and work it out (or some shit on those lines). Both I think both of us realise that it is simply too hard and maybe over time... this will become easier to work out. You were one of my pillars in life, the amount of support you had for me is unbelievable. All I can think of.. is that it has been a long road... a good long road that has come to a cross section... (or maybe it has been at a cross section for a long time). I am sure our path will meet someday later down in life, and I will hunt you down if it doesnt meet up somewhere.

Im not gonna lie, but I did cry that night, from my inability to save this situation, my lack of strength, my irreplaceable memories of both of us growing up. all in all... something died in my that night. I wish I was different.. or you were different, but it is too late to change that.. Like i told you... the old me, isnt going to come back at all. I think i said alot that night.. you know the deal, old rules are still old rules and those wouldnt change... but somethings.. wouldnt be the same again.. and i guess I will miss those the most, that innocence we shared is no longer there... and that is something I would regret the most about the two of us.

I honestly dont know how I am going to change that darkened mood to a lighter mood for the next part. so i am going to keep it short and sweet cause I dont really wanna say toooooooooooooo much about it. But TL:DR, I just had one of the best weeks of my life... I love that wednesday night... thanks for sharing it with me <3. But thats not all I appreciate, but I think its better to keep the rest between the two of us :). All in all, your beautiful, awesome and amazing. That is all.

srg91

The Script - Breakeven
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzCLLHscMOw&ob=av3e

B.o.B - Airplanes (Feat. Hayley Williams of Paramore)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kn6-c223DUU&feature=related

Bruno Mars - The Other Side ft. Cee Lo Green & B.o.B
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m8Ed8in9Qng

Paramore: The Only Exception
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-J7J_IWUhls&feature=related