I am a bastard, or rather I can be alot of the times. (see just as promised haha), no but, that is the truth. Everyone have different sides of themselves, some they show to certain pplz whilst the other sides are kept for another different group of pplz. It has been an long and interesting week. There were some bad (hopefully not extremely bad news) from my family this week. I only told one guy so far (under the influence of alchy), but it is just hard to keep my feelings under control. I do worry because it is... after all my family.
In terms of uni, im pretty fucked for it... there are... alot of work to be done this semi, but I think i will manage (somehow, like how i always manage). Met up with one of my bros this week, a while since we last hanged. As always, showed me some great times. Kudos for him finally, after a long time of searching, finding this girl who compliment him extremely well. As his long term wing throughout high school and beyond, im truely happy for his new situation. Wallet may be a little empty these days, but mate, it will be worth it for surez. Its been a long journey my friend, but may this be a new beginning to something wonderful.
Altho, this whole week, on top those of these good/bad news, i do have some great (?) news, i guess? I honestly don't want to raise my hope or anything, esp with a divided opinion from a lot of the friends I have spoken to, but i think i stumbled onto something that may be great for me. She does come on this blog, but i stick to what I wrote before, this blog is my personal space, for my own thoughts, feelings and emotions. I intend to keep this as true as possible, and also because, I dont feel like I have anything to hide, i have been honest (or honest to the best of my abilities). (pretty sure she is dying to read the next part too hahaha). To put in a cheesey pickup line, i honestly wonder why you aint tired from running in my mind in the past few days. There is... honestly no reason why this girl should say yes to anything I suggest to her, but she hasnt said no yet..., when I am with her, i feel like me, when I cant think of anything to say to her, i just want to look at her, like a dumb idiot tbh. Worst thing is, my reading ability goes no where when I am with her, honestly something tells me... this is going to well to be true when I think about it each time. I didn't understand the idea of, in a relationship, just be yourself before, now... I think i have had a taste of it. There are so many insecurities within me, i have no idea wtf I am doing, no idea what she is truly thinking, or how she feels about me. I want it to work out even tho I have no idea what to expect next. I remember linking arms and walking beside the lake... for the first 30 seconds I was so fucking scared, what if she didnt like it, what if this what if that, i literally froze and just kept walking onwards and yeh... but it is/ has been really fun and I enjoyed every single bit of it. rofl, i dont know wtf else I am meant to say =.=, but thats what is really on my mind when Im not with her.
I got a big day later today (1:30 ish here), gonna just hang abit more then zzz
outy
srg91
Yeh check these out, its pretty good stuff.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZC2sN5gd5cE&feature=related
Maroon 5 "Sunday Morning" (COVER) by alot of pplz
(these dudes are soo talented... and esp tim's freestyle, crazy shit, probably my most fav sunday morning cover of all times)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yULxdzqhXUI
You've Been On My Mind by Dave Days
(I love this guy, really nice voice and really down to earth)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DhX2iKSh2QE
Dave Days - What Does It Take
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtIfld84Ydw&feature=relmfu
Dave Days - Olive You feat. Kimmi Smiles
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgGUKWiw7Wk
JJ Heller - What Love Really Means
(very sweet XD, thank youuuu)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=rhN7SG-H-3k
Yiruma - River Flows in You
(this is really... beautiful, no lyrics (unusual for someone like me tbh) but its... smooth and passionate)
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